my motivation keeps fading away.

sometimes it's there, sometimes it's gone.

I tried everything I could to have motivation all the time.

but those expectations I got from people around me made me drowned.

those expectations made me doubt myself.

those expectations made me lose my interest.

those expectations really made me cry a lot.

can I have just a normal life?

I wanna be happy too.

I wanna live my own life, I don't want to live my life bcs of people's expectations, I don't want to live my life to meet all those things.

I'm tired, drained. inside outside.

but I still don't want to tell my parents about my problem bcs I am still hoping that there is something good that will occur after this.

I'm tryna keep being positive :)