Hi.

I feel quite emotional today. I dont know why lately i feel like i hate nottingham. I think i feel like that is bcs i dont have friends. I think though.

Until at one point i feel like quitting from notts, feel like changing university, feel like erasing all the memories that had been made there.

Just now, i was scrolling instagram and found nothing interesting so i search for #unmc just for reason that i dont know, i think it was just for no reason lol.

I found photos of our uni athletes went to the tricampus game at notts uk. So i stalked them haha. Bcs it felt nice to see those photos, i was smiling when my eyes glued on those photos. Though i was not lucky enough to be there to play for tricampus its okay to at least see something right?

And then i found graduation photos of our final year students. At first, those photos for me were like "oh diorang dah grad ke". Bcs i was used with graduation (first grad when i was form 3 and sec grad when i was form 5) so i thought it was nothing much.

Yet, i scrolled the photos under the #unmc. Down down down, i started to feel interested to actually look into those grad photos. I can see how happy they are in those photos, i can see how relieved they are to at last graduated from nottingham, i can see how splendid their proud smile to hold that degree scroll.

Along that, i read the captions they made of those photos. It was written from their truly heart. How they wrote it, make my heart feel something, something i dont know. I feel, deep.

Something that i started to ponder and wonder again, do i really hate nottingham? Why do i hate it?

After that, i feel blessed and grateful to be placed at notts, to have at least a university to get into, while some other people are still struggling to get into universities.

And, deep down in my heart, i feel proud to be called nottingham student. And, i have to be grateful for this. :)